Now that I'm over 50 years old, I tend to be a little more reflective about my life. Over the years, I have worked very hard to get to a place in my life where I make a very good living and our family can enjoy some of the finer things in life. As I have said a million times before, I am truly blessed in this life.
Back in 1983 God and I made a deal. Without going into any detail whatsoever I will just say that over the last 29 years I have been on a mission from God. In return, I believe, God has blessed me and my family.
All that being said, I would like to say that during my mission there have been times when I've struggled in my faith. The important thing was that I kept striving, overcoming and moving forward. If I got knocked down; I got back up. I have often compared my Christian experience to a 15 round heavy weight fight between me and old Beelzebub.
Part of my struggle over the years has been with balance. How do I balance my work life and my home life? How do I balance being in the world and still maintain my faith? Trust me, in a 60 to 70 hour work week, it isn't easy. I have to confess that I used to beat myself up over the fact that I felt like I didn't live up to mantra of being a Christian. Quite honestly, I often thought that if I were on trial for being a Christian that there might not be enough evidence to convict me.
So here's what my reflective self has come up with... I need to drop the guilt. While my goal is to one day be perfect before God, it isn't going to happen in this life. I need to keep in mind that, "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus..." Also, I need to focus on the positive things in life. For the most part, I've cut most of the negative people and influences out of my life. Oh, there's probably a few more that need jacked from my life but I'm in a good place now. Keep praying for me... it's starting to pay off.
Be Well.
Bill
