I'm sitting here tonight trying to embrace my fatness. That's right, I am El Gordo, the fat one. While I've known this for quite some time I have never really embraced it. Oh, I've stepped in it a couple times but never embraced it. So, please, let me indulge myself. (Pun Intended)
Growing up, my grandmother would say that I was husky or heavyset. I never liked either of those terms, I mean, we don't call people who are skinny, lightset, so it didn't really make sense and I have no idea what the hell husky means. I did notice on my medical evaluation that the Nurse described my build as obese. That one kind of hurt. It makes it sound like I have a disease... "Excuse me, you had better keep the small children and the elderly away from Mr. Kirby - he's obese." So maybe obesity is a medical term but I think I'll stick with the term - fat.
What's funny about this is that my family and friends don't like me describing myself as fat, like, by not saying it I won't be fat. And, just to clarify, there is no truth to the phrase, "fat and happy", at least not to this point for me. I am miserable. And that is why I am trying to embrace my fatness. I'm already fat so why be miserable? I mean, fat isn't a four-letter word, so that's a good start, right?
So, here goes nothing... I'm fat. I'm also smart, talented, funny, witty, successful, generous, loyal, loving, and I have a big heart to go with my big waste size. Not a bad start. So, no more saying that I'm struggling with my weight, I'm just fat.
I read somewhere that in order to gain one pound a person has to consume an average of 3,500 more calories than they burn. That being the case, I only have to burn 297,500 more calories than I consume in the next few years for me to lose the title of Fatty.
As you know, writing this blog is my therapy. After tonight, it looks like I might need another session or so before I can claim that I've made some progress in embracing my fatness. So until then, I'll just raise a pudgy fist for fat pride and declare that fat is beautiful.
Be well.
Bill
